TAMED TO TOLERATE

TAMED:

The word used frequently as I was growing up. It was like I was a wild being on the loose with out a barring. See that wasn’t the case, well not in my perception. I just saw life as a free careless child. As one should, or so I dreamt of. There were so many times when all I heard was “Why can’t she sit still?, What’s her problem?” I heard this so much I actually thought I had an issue. I heard this up until my mid 20’s….crazy right! Sometimes like now, one might ask “Why are you so excited?” to where It caused me to loose the joy of why I was happy, whether it being good news I received, me having a breakthrough, achieving a goal, or just choosing to be happy. It seemed like I was always in the wrong circle of people who never expected good to happen in my life. Whatever to them! that’s the clean version.

Not thinking my joyous, playful behavior was an issue, it continued on in a boundless way. Not to cause harm to others or their understanding of the order of the world, I just saw the world in more color than the regular, boring, person. I was tamed in ways that you would use for a wild animal, seriously. I felt, like a slave to my character and personality. I prayed to be like the eagle, who could fly high above the forest ( regular people) and soar to the height needed to be free in my known world. The bald eagle is not tamable. It was created to have its own place and purpose in the world and so I believe the same for myself. 

What have you been tamed from becoming in your life? What part of your raising, beliefs taught you to be tamed in? Does it affect your behavior now or are you yet tamed?

TOLERATE:

To just deal with one or a situation knowing that eventually he/she will leave or the issue/situation will pass. The painful version of “Mind Over Matter” the way to lie to yourself thinking that it will get better, they will change, or you can achieve it on your own. What I’ve learned in my now 34 years of living is EVERYONE needs SOMEONE, simple. The issue you choose to ignore will not just pass or in reality it will pass to the next generation because you were taught to just tolerate until it passes. This is and has been the real killer of families, relationships, business deals, churches hecks… even your own purpose. When you tolerate an unhealty situation with the thoughts of it will pass, they will change eventually, you teach the mind how to except the worst as normal. What the generation before us and before them were taught was to tolerate whatever they were in, to deal. No safe places to communicate the pain, the disagreement , or even speak freely with difference of opinion. It was “Do as I say, Don’t ask questions, and I make the decision”way of living.

I believe that the level of tolerance has made many numb to the reality of being completely happy, full of life..like really and free from past pains to where you can help another and not hinder another. In my search for healing I’ve discovered I have tolerated so much it became suppression to where I just never have proper attention to. Today, Its certain to say, with coaching, correct support I’ve been able to release for my own healing. It’s a daily exercise as worth the connecting results.

My question to self and this now generation how much more will you tolerate verses getting healed?

What do you do to heal?

It’s up to us to heal.. and teach others too.

I love you,

LeslieMMichelle