Big Sister Little Sister

Growth

This month has brought me much pain, I thought I was clear of pain for a while. I was finally moving in areas I pushed to grow in and to. I was thinking better, understanding my power in a more mature way. I was ready to serve again fully. I had discovered a way to heal in areas I kept  secret. I opened up the blocked brainwaves of creativity, clogged by again another false situationship. This time I made the choice to change fully. I reached out to those who I needed to apologize to and moved on. 

I will say its a fact that when you are growing in the right direction many who choose to be stuck or lie to self will not be happy for you nor welcoming to you. I want you to take this away this month. life is a choice. You choose how you live, you choose when you want to grow up, and you choose who to forgive. I want you to forgive faster than you did last time, not for the person, for you! release the knot in your own body, created by you and live. 

Relationship

I experienced a major pain this month. I released my sister. I cannot say lost because I valued every talk, visit, text, hug, smile, words of guidance, encouragement. There was nothing i regret in the life-form, and time we shared. Each talk was full, warm(even when i as being reprimanded) and full of love. I have no real regrets. I of course in this situation wanted more time. Time to show Geisha all that I had become, how I turned it all around, where I was, and what i planned to move forward to. I wanted to gift her with appreciation by actions. We had many conversations and I kept a few surprises up my sleeve just for her. Well, time stands still for no one indeed.  With my sister, everytime we were together time moved a bit slower just for us, and i made sure to used every second of my time with her with wisdom. 

I know for sure I have to move from this space in time, this place of emotional pain. I have to move on because its life. Life is a moving element that noone can control its end. I am amazed at who I am just today. Its not because of me, I had a secret weapon, a tool i kept hidden, never tainted, upgraded when this got tough, never asked to mesh in with the “new it thing”. No, this weapon was a one of a kind, a masterpiece, crafted in Gods image to a T. Not one time did I worry about my faults with her, my pain being used to build her up, not even one time did we not talk out our differences and become stronger. She was my sister like no other. The one who raised me to be loyal, respect ones opinion but live in my own truth. I had the best secret weapon a lil girl could ask for.  Now let me be frank Geisha knew i was the wild, free spirit lil sister and not once did she attempt to put me in a box for her comfort, that was amazing to me, that is what made her my safe place. My secret weapon is my sister Geisha Dana Brown. 

Lesson

So, my lesson learned here and I am passing on to you. Pride is the killer of love, sister/brotherhood. Communication is the tool of healing in all ways. Trust is earned when life proves its a challenge. Courage is a choice to mend lost dreams. But the lost of a real sister/brother will teach you that they admired you more then you did them, live for self and carry on the legacy that gave you another chance. Be who you needed in the world. I love you Geisha, rest now for soon ill be praying more just to talk to you.

Love,

LeslieMysha Michelle (little sister)